Change of Plans!

Soooooo, I switched to Wordpress! I'll now be blogging over at dearrainydays.wordpress.com. :) Come visit me over there!

Impatience.

This land is on my heart. And I know that God laid it there, because every time, after I spend time in His word and talking to Him, I feel a yearning to be in Africa, serving Him with all my heart, soul and mind.
When I was younger, I always heard sermons that said 'Just because you become dedicated to God, doesn't mean He's going to send you to Africa or something!', and I always pictured Africa as being this horrible place, because even the evangelists made it sound undesirable. But then I met people who had visited there, and none of them were like other people that I knew. They were changed, and they had left their heart in Africa. You could see the passion in their eyes when they spoke of it and could tell that they were different from you and I.
I want to feel that passion. I want to be where God has called me and to be joyful because I know I'll be in the center of His will.
At the moment, I feel so impatient because I want to be there now.But I know that this, right now, is what God has for me. I can only hope to grow so much closer in my walk with God. I want to grow in my faith, and in my prayer life.
I want to grow in Him. My rock and my fortress, my trust.

I Run To Christ

I run to Christ when chased by fear
And find a refuge sure.
“Believe in me,” His voice I hear;
His words and wounds secure.

I run to Christ when torn by grief
And find abundant peace.
“I too had tears,” He gently speaks;
Thus joy and sorrow meet.

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I run to Christ when worn by life
And find my soul refreshed.
“Come unto Me,” He calls through strife;
Fatigue gives way to rest.

I run to Christ when vexed by hell
And find a mighty arm.
“The Devil flees,” the Scriptures tell;
He roars, but cannot harm.

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I run to Christ when stalked by sin
And find a sure escape.
“Deliver me,” I cry to Him;
Temptation yields to grace.

I run to Christ when plagued by shame
And find my one defense.
“I bore God’s wrath,” He pleads my case—
My Advocate and Friend.

Christ is my rock and my refuge, in Him does my soul trust. The last verse is what really hit me, especially after writing all those things about Jesus being better. I can run to HIM, my solid refuge from whatever storm is going on in my life right now. Why does He love me, a dirty, rotten sinner? I don't deserve His love. His love, that can move mountains and calm the sea and I am the recipient of that love. That truth just blows my mind.

Praise God.

So there's this chic.

Her name is Jill and we are tight. She just graduated from college and I just graduated from highschool and there's a crazy age difference. But we're super close because we have the same desire and that desire is to serve God with all our hearts, souls, and minds. She's the girl I spend hours talking to about what God is doing in my life. She's the girl that challenges me every day to get in the Word and spend time in prayer. She's the girl that gives me backrubs in church and is always there to encourage me.
After I talk to her, I always want to reach for my Bible and have a good long time with Jesus because she has that effect on me.
Jill, thanks for being just the friend God knew I needed. You're the best. I love you.

Potterhead.

I just ordered for myself this sweater and eagerly await it's arrival. I will be living in this, this winter so beware.

God Gave Me You.

We crack ourselves up. I like this boy very muchly. Last night, I had more fun with him that I've had in awhile. He makes me laugh always, even though he tickles me. We always have a good time, but last night was definitely one of the best days with him. David Vincent, I like you.

Work was crazyyyy, today. I worked a 7 hour shift and since it's tax-free weekend, business was insane. I have some really cool co-workers though, so it wasn't as bad as it could've been. The highlight of my day was definitely lunch break, during which I got a coffee and sat down to spend some time in Jesus' Word. It was relaxing and wonderful. I love Jesus because He is better.

Rainy Morning.

This morning I woke up to the best sound in the world: rain. I smiled and knew it was God's way of waking me up gently this morning. I got dressed for work, got a cup of coffee and sat down to spend some time with my Jesus in His Word. Today, I finished the Bible study in the book of James that I've been doing for seven weeks and I was sad to see it end. I learned and grew so much during these past weeks!
I then left for work, and boy, was it a hard day. I definitely needed that gentle waking or else it could've been a lot worse than it was! I worked at my second job, cleaning after a construction job at a school in the middle of Kansas City. I'm the only white girl with several Mexicans, but thankfully Spanish is my second language so it's not hard to get along with them.
Today, while cleaning, I had the song Lord, Send Me Anywhere on my mind. The line that says Lord, send me anywhere, only go with me. Sever any tie which binds me, save the tie which binds me to thy heart. Wow. 'Can I honestly say that is my prayer?' was the first thought that went through my mind when I began to think about those words and then I remembered what I wrote about in my last post: Jesus is better. He is better than anything which binds my heart to this earth and it is my prayer that God would sever those ties that I have to this earth. I want to be free to do His will, without any worldly desires tying me down.
I want the desires of my heart to be His desires, never mine.